a busy day

today is extremely busy. because conrad delayed his session and we are rushing to set up the training hall for the next session.

too rushed, but the sign ups are good. so everything is worth it!

now i feel like going to ss1 for some delicious noodle and later where shall i go?? hmm.. it's raining outside though. bad weather! well for all i care, it ain't a problem for me. a lil wet might just be what i need.

a walk in the rain. i wonder how does that feels..

missin'

missing you is just another feeling,

trying very hard to sustain.

never letting it show,

but all the more pique my curiosity.

the law of attraction,

seems not working on me.

because it seems i am never in the same breathing room as you do when i want it,

because i never seems to be able to feel you whenever i am missing you.

wanting what one can't have,

always is the peak of the interest.

wanting you,

is the peak of cruelty.

for you belong to someone else already.

i am being selfish,

because i really want you.

i am being foolish,

for i have fallen for you.

how can i resist you,

someday would i be able to call you as my own?

to lean on your shoulder saying i love you

to hear you whispering back i love you too.

no one knows.

random off day

yesterday i started my off day looking like this and didn't do any planning just thought i will need to go TS to reshape my eyebrow and probably walk around. so after breakfast with S and B, i went to TS and sg.wang. walk to the bank because i thought there's no maybank atm at TS. *sweat actually they have. so walk and walk on my un-friendly heels, i got just the right excuse to buy another pair of heels. hey i got all together 7 blisters in both my feet ok! then after that i went to TS and do what i am supposed to do, eyebrow reshaping. so in approximately 4 hrs later, i left looking like this..


nice? a brand new hair cut again. my stylist for the day, suki did a very good job. she supposed to make me looks mature after cutting and styling but somehow i felt i look more younger and like a puppy, i love looking like a puppy. *LOL i love dogs..


next S came and pick me. we went to MV for a mean portuguese grill fish. my all time faves. S had his faves..


then we went to play games at the jusco play land out of boredom. we wanted to play time crisis but they don't have it there. so we played this shit which shows how bad my coordination is..


so just to have more fun, we head down to 1u just to have a game or two of time crisis and pool. alas, i am a bad aimer. he wins my share!


pool time. oh lala..


this is what i have done. a very bad player but i will and determined to brush up this skill.

after all the games and fun, we head home and sleep.

so next week is S's birthday. i haven't decide what to get him and how to celebrate yet. plan plan plan.. what's the plan?

boo boo

my boo boo is sick now.

i am really worried and upset about it.

may my boo boo get well real soon.

can't wait to see her very very soon.

my time

saturday i spent the day working for full day then meet S and B. we ffked a wedding dinner and went for steamboat.

sunday was a working day like usual and after that i think i went out for a short shopping trip and bought myself some mask. lalala.. i can finally mask my face away from the world, just like i am masking myself away from missing you.

monday is working day and had meeting with everyone. at the end of the meeting, allowance to be abolished and replaced by incentives. further information will be provided later. *sigh there goes my plan to work hard and work long for money. another bad news, company trip to taiwan will be replaced to some local island due to the bad economic slump now. another great long *sigh

tuesday is working and nothing else. missing certain someone even more.

gotta run now. got a dinner appointment with S. may i get to move out from my current s***hole house soon! i am so looking forward to it!!

it's real

no need to wait for a long time because it became real already at this moment.

now, what do i do?? can i? shall i? will i?

ok fine leave it then? perhaps not but how?

hmm.. i am totally happy and excited now but at the same time a bit sad so let's just leave it for the time being and act cool and normal about it!

** for those who keep asking what the heck is this all about, well it is *winks* something i suppose it's silly. TJ i am not gonna tell you what this is all about. no need to bug me~

c&c gossip outing session 1 year 2009

c&c gossip outing for the year 2009 yesterday has commenced its first session last night.

went and pick C up at her place at jln genting klang and off we went to town. she suggested pavilion. i say ok, let's give it a test.

so drove and rained on our way to town and i took a few wrong turns, well i don't remember how to get to town from her place so..

then find some place to park and off we went for our exploration. we decided on.. lecka-lecka in the end after a tour at pavilion's restaurant and pub.

hence we talked and talked and talked. i told her about my silly crush with someone and she told me about her trip to sabah lately. we didn't gossip about anyone or anything but we just had a very superb bff night out together.

she is my huge dose of bff when i really need to vent, she is my sanity when i am thinking of the impossible. she is my hope when i am wondering and she encourage me to do it. yeah you know what i am saying babe.

muacks. thanks for the love bao bei!

do better than didn't

i have done it. now's the waiting time.

tick tock tick tock tick tock

i wonder what's the outcome.

tick tock tick tock tick tock

very anxiously waiting for the result.

tick tock tick tock tick tock

how long do i have to wait?

to do or not to do

i am gonna do it! after last nite's meeting i have decided to just do it.

but i am greedy, if i have succeed i want even more!

tonight

tonight is the nite..

1st outing for c&c gossip club in this year 2009. i am going to go home, shower and pick her up. feel like wanting to splurge but see how later. need to remember to borrow books for her to read. yeah we are both into reading different genre's stuff. i am a sucker for romance while she's more towards literature.

finally i can vent all my so called anger and gossip on my dearest bestie. she really can make my day. oh la la.. i can just imagine what a hot hot nite its gonna be!

cheerios pal, its been an effin duh time for me. i need a big dose of her. have a nice weekend!

i wish..

somehow i wish i am as strong as her when it is you! i hate you!!

fallen

i have fallen from a very good mood til the bottomless and ugly pit in just a few minutes. i am doubting about myself.

i had fun from the time though shortly spent with you,
somehow i always hope i'll be different in your eyes,
i love the way you will talk to me and tease me,
though it is so plainly said and yet i still am attracted to you.

it is not easy to forget all about you yesterday,
because i dressed to impress you,
i talked to get your attention,
i want you to look at me as i am.

forbidden fruits are always the tastiest no doubt,
wishing i could just taste you just for this once.

this is how i felt through today. honestly, i kinda miss you and i kinda like you.

boys

big boys are so much fun.

had a super duper nice night yesterday excluding the bored to death and oh so not professional presentation by the eagles. those big boys will know what i am talking about.

went to jln ipoh for the infamous bah kut teh and well it tastes normal and so so. nothing too fancy about it. the fanciest thing about last nite is the boys.

they are just like overgrown big boys having fun, albeit a lil to the rough side!

bang

bang bang. it is a boring sunday.

hot

gossip girls season 2 is just so hot. i wonder how hot last episode's gonna be!

the list go on.. and on.. and on..

coming back to kl after my weeks long holiday makes me misses my home more.

why?

because when i am at home, i am required to do minimal things such as wake up later than usual (however late i want), eat whatever been served (no need to think), watch tv all day long even though most of the time is the tv watches me, play baby-sitting (is actually playing peek-a-boo which means hide and seek in a way so that baby cannot find me) etc.

but now back in kl and back to work reminds me of the on going's previews and camps and workshops. translating to: no more weekends until the 1st week of april and that's only the only week and then back to busy-ing again!! back to kl home means i have tonnes of laundry needs to be done and i have to really got to clean up my room! the dust is inching higher up. gosh. ya ya, i am sucha slob *grinz*

then when i am slightly free i need to run some errands like stocking up my food box and bring my suit to dry clean and alter my jeans and pants. i need to transfer money to pay my car insurance although it is not even due yet! thanks to my dad and his good ol' agent who convinced me to pay earlier. i also gotta get a hair cut because undoubtedly i look like an unkempt shih tzu on the roam and...

so the list goes on.. and on.. and on..

i am back

finally the frenzy cny and stuff is over and i am back at kl now. sob sob.. i miss my family so much especially my most adorable monsters, claudine buu buu and na-ta-niu! eh-hem, it's a nickname of them.

buu buu, i miss you real lots. although you have been a total monster for this past weeks but i am loving each and every seconds i spent with you. wish i could have done a better job.

na-ta-niu, i love you so much for bringing up so many surprises and you really are a wonderful boy and you are growing oh so fast! i can't wait to see you grow again the next time i am home.

this homecoming really brings out all the fun and joys and loves and happiness and of cos some minor tantrums that's bound to happen when all the hengs are around. i have been nice, i have been good, i have been lazy and i have been naughty. can't help it, home brings out the best and the worst in me and i love each and everyone for able to tolerate me and for loving me. muacks muacks.

well this cny ain't that cool for my car too, he's been admitted to workshop for few days due to a minor accident by ryan while me and keren went out to pick claude and his brother at the causeway checkpoint. sigh.. ain't a good news to tell it out loud but nevertheless, xiao bai is out and about already and i am glad. just hope there's no more major things happen to him anymore! my faint heart couldn't take it anymore.

anyway, 1st day back at work and i am really feeling the tuesday blues. later then..