:(

i am not feeling good..

success moment

finally.. it has been a long long time since i achieve something like this especially after i have entered the social university.

what has i finally achieve? yes finish reading lisa kleypas's book of approximately 386pages in 3 days. yeah! *aiks.. memalukan saja lar*

how it happen,

deepavali eve - stay home. actually wanna go out and explore bukit gasing with my bestest travelling mate but then due to my utter lazi-ness so after shower then i stay hibernating with this book and turn on my anime sugar-sugar rune so that i can multi task. slept at 4am.

deepavali day - *aiks* forgot to turn the tv off so erm listen to those sweetly charming conversation while i sleep. too tired to wake my sorry ass to turn it off. then wake up and eat muruku, deliberately go tesco and buy the day before just to celebrate deepavali *kononnye.. continue reading. lunch consist of instant noodle. read some more. nap time for 3 hrs. read. shower. then dinner of almost the same liking as lunch. then read and read and read.

after deepavali - work then lunch break. read some more while picking up calls and realize once again i sucks at multi tasking. then work. home. dinner and watched raymond's drama then shower. read and read until i finish.

finally.. so today gotta rest my brain for sometime. how to rest? of course by reading comics oh and my monthly cleo. haven't buy yet. too lazy to go out.

anyway can't wait for tomoro evening where i am going to souled out for C's birthday and halloween partay. see you girls there. can't wait at all. muacks and love ya..

明天以後

actually this song in chinese version is also very very nice and meaningful. not going to upload it this time because can't find the mtv of it. but there's always a link.. and yes, it's raymond's song again!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EnpxQt-J1eQ&feature=related

lovely song

gosh.. u guys are so going to yawn reading my blog nowadays. * big grinz!!

but i just lurve him so so much.. unbelievable? ya i think i lost my mind somewhere in my raymond lam fung play list. :P

deepavali

happy deepavali to those who celebrate and for those who don't, happy holiday.

for me? happy sleeping and wishing all my wishes is coming true by then. lol.. greedy rite? ya i thought so too but who isn't?

raymond.. la..la..la..

went to pavillion yesterday just to see him. he is absobloodylutely cute! *GRINZ*

obsessed

ok. alrite. i am very very obsessed with raymond lam fung.

never in my life i googled about someone or anyone at all. imagine this, i googled RLF today and downloaded as much of his songs that i can find and i am actually seriously considering going to pavilion tomoro evening just to see him. even jay chow in mys also i didn't behave like this! *gosh.. what has become of me???

Bangkok Dangerous

last night went to ts to watch this with L, V and S. L won 2 pairs of bangkok dangerous movie tickets through some sms game on the radio and so out of blue L ask whether i wanna go and watch with them.

went there straight after work because it is raining and well jams is definitely expected! *sigh.. but then i ain't the driver so not a problem at all. i was enjoying reading the book i borrowed from CLC (:

reach there about 7 something and went to get some food and did some window shopping surveying some cosmetics items. nope! i am not thinking of getting any cosmetic item but surveying products in the market. then unexpectedly, i was asked to fill in some contest form and was given a rm20 cash voucher to purchase perfume at sasa. lol..

so movie time. sucks! not that nicholas is not suave but this movie is just plain bored with no story line and all about killing and in the end killing himself. moreover his image in this movie reminds me of a particular professor. professor severus snape *hahaha..

then by the time we finish the movie, it is still raining. rain rain go away!! anyway at home i am tucked with my gg episode 7 and blanket and enjoying every bit of it.

happy

received an unexpected email this morning and it cheers me up tremendously!

thanks YH for the song you sent to me. love it real lots and been repeating and repeating it in my play list.

thanks and thanks and thanks again.. muacks.. love you to bits, pal!! :)

change

sometimes changes is inevitable.

who likes to change when they are comfortably in their world? but dissatisfaction is always nagging somewhere behind our minds and what shall we do? change? or leave the thoughts alone? sometimes we need to change to fulfil the needs and wants from ourselves. a lot might not know what they gotta do and are at lost. but once the path has been laid out and we walk along we might just find the satisfaction growing and the nagging sense of doom leaving us further and further away.

sometimes we need to listen to ourselves, listen to our heart and listen properly. thinking with a clear sense of mind is a must but sometimes the heart makes the right decision. destiny is on our own hands and changes to be more better is all by ourselves. so why not change when deep down you know this is what you want to do?

boredom

living in my own la la land of boredom.

saturday is working. first round of the previews season. first time doing the intro speech which is quite alright but of course needs more practice and stuff. i am real glad that it is DT who is here for the preview this time as he is the best for giving me the inaccused and high vote of confidence. glad everything went on well! thanks again for the vote of confidence. then went home and continue my boredom. dinner's a blip. truth be told, i can't remember a thing about it!

sunday, let's see.. working as usual and well nothing much after that except stay at home and watch dvd all night if i am not wrong. hmm.. seems like i have caught the forgetful-ness disease. is it a sunday or yesterday that mom called and ask me to find some time to go home to visit grandma? well i can't remember a thing. but i know i am taking off from work next month for visiting grandma. it's in my messed up schedule and yes to schedule off for the course that i need to attend with F. remember!! it's important!!

monday is an failing attempt of working. i mean finishing up work on time but failing miserably. oh well, who says work will finish. duh..

tuesday is erm finishing the unfinished and tackling the un-tackled stuff at work. been letting myself loose on my planning. well i promise to go over the documents as soon as i am not so tied up and yes i will do the academy research on it.

lately this is what i have been doing. repeating the same activities every single day. repeating the same play list again and again and a bad habit of mine seems to catch up with me now almost everyday or let's just be honest to all.. it's everyday! *sigh.. what's becoming of me?? beats me.. i have got totally zilch idea about it!



this is a superbly fantastic song. if anyone who is kind enough to send me a mp3 version of this song, i would love you to bits!

stay in night

today's plan..

gossip girls season 2 re-runs
finalise my initial biz plan
sleep
adoring meself
sun tanning and have a walk around the park
cook dinner

let's cross fingers that i can achieve all tonight..

rainy & gloomy

it is a rainy and gloomy evening today. couple of mths back i did a post on friday nite thinking of a particular someone..

back then the weather and feeling's kinda same, loneliness and hopeless, missing someone that's not worth missing. somewhat making silly wishes that neither came true nor even close to it. reality, as usual sucks when you wished for moon or stars..

now's not much different from then, it is also gloomy and lonely. makes me feel a lot of emotion and think what has happened lately. these thoughts has been pushed to the back of my brain and escaping it seems useless because threads of it keeps sticking themselves out forcing me to take a reality check on it. somehow i still believe in miracle that things gonna be ok!

wishing for rainbow as a glimmer of hope for everyone and everything that turns bad..

super mommy

this is us making sorta silly faces

that's her snapping a pic for her hubby

super mommy who gave birth to this sweetly adorable babe which the last i heard her name is melon-b

girlish galore

today seems like endless paper and envelope cuts.. *sigh thanks YH for your concern and gan cheongz! :P

a lot of stuff on my mind lately, for next year's planning already takes up most of my brain space and also for the sudden stuff that i need to research and sort out takes a quarter of the left space. too much to do yet too lil time to think and act.

words just cannot describe this but well i need to find a presentable and well known *hmm.. i wonder what you would call that place, a college? an academy? duh.. right. back to find the whatever-it-is and signed up for the courses. then voila.. a big step nearer to my plan!

*yawnz.. all talk and action little, still i am progressing if that sales exec would just hurry up and reply my email, i would have done more!

till then. sucha bored updates.. lol!

sweetness of him

early in the morning when i turn on my lappie at work and after signed in at msn, an offline message popped up..


T sent 15/10/2008 8:58 AM:
went u get this, i think i sleeping, any way just want to say good morning 2 u ....

ok. it is a normal and simple message but it is sweet and it makes my day!

thanks YH for this early morning message. muacks!

i am in ♥

no need to speculate who i am in ♥ with.. he is an actor which i am so in love with his voice currently!

that's all..

emo

freaking problems chaotic life..
resolution wavering and determination losing grip
i couldn't handle it anymore
going to breakdown once again soon
emo..

words women use

FINE
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

FIVE MINUTES
If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

NOTHING
This is the calm before the storm. This means "something," and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with ‘Nothing’ usually end in "Fine"

GO AHEAD
This is a dare, not permission. Don’t do it!

LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing".

THAT’S OKAY
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That’s Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not question it or faint. Just say you’re welcome.

** very insightful! from my friendster's friend's blog**

birthday suprise

grinning carlson

friday had a surprise birthday party in the office for carlson. found out about it through fb's birthday reminder. so webby, mj, immi and me plan out the details to give the birthday boy a surprise lunch partay. but then since carlson is going to get back soon to finish up the graphic thingy so we only managed to make the best out of mj's 3 lil muffin and a "piece" of candle. to think that we even hide under the desk just to jump on him! lol!

his birthday muffin

sheeh..

nail color discussion, serious!

immi and webby at the back

me

saturday spent the whole day with dearie A. we went for brekkie at kota damansara and we to survey some mani and pedi salon for their services and ambiance. shall come out with our own plan soon since we gave ourselves another 3mths for planning. then we head to 1u because her 5series needs a shower. did visited few more salons there. had donuts at big apple's and brought some for foo. i shall remind you of the 17th nov appt on the 1st of nov, F! please remember to request off day for it because we are going together ya! then after shopping around and nothing to buy, we went to kts for some dessert. just a note, the bubur cha cha there sucks! head home and S da bao-ed dinner for us. had a late dinner and after that we continue watching the journey to west. S is playing fb and watching the drama in the living room, A is asleep in her cosy bedroom while moi is hiding in the darkness of the guestroom to update this.

sunday, hmm.. *happy happy birthday carlson!! planned to go kajang for some yummy-licious satay then accompany S to some developer's showroom and well basically is nothing much. so let's just wait til the morning comes and we shall see what are we going to do then. *yawn.. time to sleep i guess..

last nite

some idiot pissed me off! serves him right to grovel. i ain't gonna be a pushover anymore. it is time people learn some respect for me!

went to pick dearie Anson at airport. it took me almost an hour just to get to the lcct from my home. boy, what a distance! and to think i have already keep right on 95% of the journey. well people say that when one is in a bad mood, they tend to drive more reckless and faster. hmm.. this doesn't apply to me though. i didn't even hit my record on my fave stretch of the highway. came to think of it, the max i did is only 150km/h. oh so slow..

then we head back and waited for F to get her home keys to us, we did some girly wussy thingy while waiting in the car. so back at home we laze in her room to watch hk tvb drama about some pervert scheming and scaring some ol' folks, then cook instant noodle for her, cleaned up her kitchen, jump into my nightly hot shower and head to bed. sleepover at her guest room cum office. didn't sleep well though, i hate cold..

lately my post is all without pictures, can't find my usb cable. must be hiding in one of the many bags i have used last weekend. shall find his sorry hide this weekend and make him work his cute butts off transferring songs and pictures for me!

i knew it!

The Bottom Line

Good karma is definitely coming your way today. You can expect some rewarding gifts.

In Detail

Good karma is definitely coming your way, today, and you can expect some extremely rewarding gifts to land right in your lap. You've done some wonderful deeds, yourself, in the recent past, and the people you have helped are ready to help you, should you need anything. This is going to be a very educational day that will teach you how to win people over to your cause without sending them on a guilt trip. You are learning more about how to use your charm to get ahead in life.

dinner

what's for dinner??

trip down memory lane..

a trip down memory lane..

miss you guys a lot, let's do this again sometime soon?

irk!!

sometimes just purely out of frustration when i can't find or get the things i wanted, i will get mad and do crazy stuff.. it irks me to have this habit but this is how i get it off my back!

love me as i am

i am who i am.. love me as i am..

loving a person doesn't have to change,

if he really feels the same, he will accept and love even more.

love is about growing up and learn about each other together,

not judge nor deem one as imperfect because of who you are.

love is complex.. love heals everything and love hurts the most..

be who one really are and some day love will find its way to the heart and soul..

dedicate this post to YKV

the house bunny

The House Bunny Music Video


it's crappy and funny.. thanks immi to include me for this movie last nite!

i forgive you

last week in my msn with L:

L: what happened?
C: don't wanna talked about it! something i did..
L: what you did?
L: nvm
L: i forgive u.

i was touched by L who is so willing to forgive me when he didn't even know what i have done.

thanks real lots, you silly ol' bear.. muacks.. hope everything work out for you and V!

my love rose

Your Love is Represented by a White Rose

While you may or may not be totally naive, you do approach love with an eternal innocence. You love like you've never been hurt. And you put all your faith in your partner. Your philosophy on love is: be honest and be yourself.

What Rose Represents Your Love?

sunday blue

wake up early to send my baby car to repair and service, if it's not because of the race last night i wouldn't have sent it to KC that early. another rm250 bill charged. *sigh..

someone pissed me off so he's gonna foot all bills today! had mcD's shaker fries, it's a so-so thingy. still prefer the banana pie though. later then go to eat nasi lemak at ikano, and after sunway we go eat thai laksa *yucky* at the garden cafe and lastly tesco for some grocery shopping.

shaker's delight

nice environment but yucky food

went to the curve for some watch watching and yes, my annual watch buying is gonna be postponed due to the reason i am totally broke this month. but i know which watch to get already. while waiting for my car to be ready we went to sunway pyramid to survey some other watch shop but still nothing fancy that i like and i swear this year am going to get a round face watch rather than square ones since i already have 3 of them same shapes!

at sunway pyramid

stay in night with maggie noodle and did house cleaning. clean up the pots and pans, my bags, organised my room but nope it's still in a mess. it is a tired last day of the holiday. can't wait for another long holiday so i can sleep as much as i can! but isn't it sleeping's a waste of time?

hols

camwhore at lift..

saturday really patronised a place where given moi the choice? i would rather not go. cut the crap and here it goes.

you & me

at Go-Gung Restaurant, The Garden.

went to mv with CLC and we had korean at the garden for brekkie, lunch and dinner. cool? yeah considering we spent only rm100.10 for it. yummy-licious! the restaurant is named go-gong which according to CLC in chinese is ol' palace. beats me, cannot read chinese well! we both ordered different soupy looking meal. mine's kim chi and her's dunno-what and it is nice. the environment and the service is good as well. *hehe.. we even ordered a pancake which is alright but in the end i am too darn full to stuff everything into meself. so CLC, when's the next round?

hot soup and cold dish

sizzling hot kim chi

seafood pancake

after heavy 3hrs lunch, we went shopping around mv and she is darn obsessed with mng's tote! *lol.. i wonder did she go and buy it today?? anyway we shop everywhere and we bought a top at f.o.s, surveyed my make up item which is in desperate need to be replaced and she bought a book! yes, we shares similar hobby except we don't really read the same genre. she's more to bibliography and fiction while moi is more to romance *sigh..

random pictures..

shoe we found in topshop

my idea of shoes and bags closet

later in the evening we decided to make a trip to damansara. went to ikea where sho bought some pots set and some knick knacks. after that head to my fave place, the flea market at the the curve. she get a pashima while i bought nothing again! can't find those cute thongs that i saw some time ago *sob.. she kept pestering me with starbucks's chocolate cream and tempted me with green tea frappe. *argh.. i coulda kill her!! but no i resisted temptation.. *hehehehe..

sent her back to genting klang and parked my butt at her place for couple of hours. we facebooked some ol school chums and we friendstered some pictures. she lives in the most beautiful view place i have ever seen. its the penthouse unit on 22nd floor with views of everywhere including genting *wow.. i am so in love with her home.. everyone knows i have a soft spot for beautiful views and i can literally move just for the view of the place.

some idiots turn on the lights suddenly..

it's about 1am that i left her place and went home *lol.. speed race with 2 other cars along mrr2 and of course, moi won the race *eh hem.. they are pro racer mind ya. a gold kelisa and a myvi. thought it is some ol colleagues saw me there and dare me for a race and who knows, they are just some strangers. then its the skill and opportunity that wins me the race. somplimentary learned from leonard, a pro as well! wtf he even rolled down the window and gimme a thumbs up! oh..la..la.. it a happy happy night after all! wish there's just another such chance with this guy and hope we get to race one another again.

alright this is a private joke.

so what!

so what if i have started drinking even before mid-day? today's a rejuvenating lonesome day where i spend the day all by myself! though i did plan to go out and have a cuppa after i helped someone to make payment to the bank but duh.. shiraz is so much more enjoyable and re-runs of gossip girls season2 is just pure bliss. i snuggle myself in bed and ta-da.. wine and peanut *huh?? wait a minute. did i mention peanut?? yeah! well, wine and peanut, not a good combo but still i am royally laze to go out to buy whatever that goes with wine.


so what if i don't wanna re-visit certain places where it holds a lot of unwanted memories? i am here already at one of it blogging my sad stories. if given me the chance? i would never wanna go to those places anymore because it sucks! memories of it hurts and well i ain't letting it gets to me again! but still, it sucks! wtf tomoro am going to go to another place where it holds a lot of sucky memories. shit!! CLC, can we go other place than that? we can always go mont kiara for nice korean food than there. or better yet, we go eat nando's? *grinz*

so what if after this i am going back and continue drinking my half bottle shiraz? don't care. i am giving myself leeway to become more and more emo! (even found my black eyeliner which can dramatise my mood!) just like what i have read at CM's blog, something that says "don't just think you want it but do it, cos thinking of what you want won't get you far." so i changed it to my own version, just do it cos hesitating is gonna waste my time. so let's have a nite in savouring the wine and don't think about tomoro.

so what if life treats me bad? i am gonna stand up and live it to the max! i know it has been long due since i need to do this but yes i always believe that nothing is too late, justa matter of whether want or don't want. like the old school says, i want, i can and i will..

**edits**

went to raya open house with housemie and had some delicious but wish it is hotter rendang and ketupat.

on the way to go gombak..

after that we went to k.t.z for some after dinner dessert but it is not nice..

lazy afternoon

head down to 1u..

yesterday she forgot to bring cash but brought her platinum plastics instead..

today she forgot to bring her cash again but brought her cheque book..

i wonder how is she going to shop later..

hungry, stop for some extra hot peri-peri at nando's..

the chilli

the love

the camwhoring me

and me

and distorted dunno who

and us

and her newly bought ring

and we demolish one whole chicken

next we head to buy some baby stuff but ended up we did adults shopping..

didn't bought anything again *weird* but had an ugly ice cream

ok so after all this walking..

saw some unexpected and unwanted people.. rather not talk about it!

wanna go shower and enjoy the '06 shiraz..till then.. toodles (:

its a break

raya first day is such a bore. btw selamat hari raya to those who celebrate! no offense but its really a bore.

wake up and made up, went from sleepy head to glamour bitch in 30mins. pick dearie A up at home and went to jln bukit bintang from lot10 to sg wang then starhill. it is for some sorta surveying that we are both keen on doing. she bought a pair of shoe, a see through dress, a some sorta jacket/outer wear. me bought nothing except 2 bottle of mineral water.

head to bangsar then for another glitzy shopping spree. tried a lot of clothes but none is really nice on me. from goss:p to bombshell, from people's and egg to cats whisker nothing capture my attention long enough for me to purchase it! *sigh.. she bought another cute lil office wear top again.

went to A's for shower and dinna and lounging at poolside. had some barley ginkgo dessert and can't wait for a better tomoro where it doesn't bores me much..

but..

tomoro is still a bore, should have taken up YF's offer of movie and dinna! well, let's reschedule dear since i am needed to accompany dearie A for some baby shopping again!

wake up and head over to dearie A's for early swimming and then breakfast of maggie at home. now's surfing and blogging and doing nothing! baby S is sleeping and poo poo-ing. boo.. i am at the guest room cum office and cracking what's to blog about and what's my plan later.

oh, did i mention i have officially gotten myself, count, not 1, not 2, not 3 as well but 4 damn fucking bruise on my arm and legs.3 of them is fucking gigantic and hate it! can't wear shorts nor anything shorter and can't wear sleeveless! man.. i looked like being abused! dammit..