the n.e.w. me

the n.e.w me..

finally went for a hair cut..

shorter length..

messier 'do..

for better or worse..

the n.e.w me..

hang out with T and R

yesterday was a day of flash flood and traffic jam and also occasional making wrong turns and of course some girly wussy catch up with T and R. of cos, J joined us for movie and supper as well.

yesterday i spent 2 hours on the road of just below 30kms from home to time square [TS] *sigh.. the jam is getting worse even in off peak hours of 2pm. was on my way to time square to get movie tickets for everyone. then head to hotel and meet T and R.

after that we go cheras to eat chicken rice and so some toiletries shop. then weather's bad for us to go to connaught's pasar malam so.. head back to TS again. we had some windows shopping and then went to starbucks and enjoy a cuppa..

my fave.. green tea frap with choc chips..

then poor J had to endure endless traffic jams and arrive late for Wall E :( but still we did have an enjoyable time watching it! *lolx.. pizza plant~ it is a very meaningful and touching story and of cos it is funny as hell. makes me wanna watch it again!!

head to eat teochew porridge at jalan pudu for our supper but J's dinner.. *if i were him to be in that sorta hunger state until that kinda time, i would have gotten nasty! :P then we ordered loads of food and surprise came after dinner when J's mom came and join us for supper after her own gathering at somewhere else.

last on the agenda is go T and R's hotel and have a hot shower and sit and talk til late in the morning before heading home.

now's the time to go and meet sis for dinner..

mind messes with me

things been troubling me a lot lately..

we have personal relationship life,

good friends of mine will know what is going on but i am not truthfully truthful cos there is still some certain things i have been keeping it to myself and only one particular person knows it all. truth be told? i don't think so. call me selfish but i always believe in privacy. pry it out from me, i'll get nasty but keeping it inside of me makes me confused and irritating as hell. well today's a good day to spring clean every thoughts as Jackie has already been ushering me to change and get over it since like.. well way before i left Osim. *sighz.. sorry to all that's been prompting and telling but i take things at my own pace. when i have make a firm decision only i will do something about it. seeing me dilly-dallying can only mean one thing, decision's not firm or none at all's been made. hate to burst bubbles but this is me, something i dislike but i accept myself the way i am!

next we have work,

work's fine the way it is but somehow thoughts of changing has been nagging at me. i love my job now but then i guess it is just so not me to be able to withstand it long. what i need is more challenging stuff to get me going but not something too mundane. seriously i am surprise about it but still gotta ask, Jackie, how come you know what i have been thinking lately? deep down the thoughts has already been there for quite some time but only very recent i voice the thoughts out and only to a handful of people which they don't even know you well! anyway it is just some thoughts and the actual plan of moves will only take place next year if all went well, that is..

then we have myself,

what's wrong with me? i can't even pin-point it out but then something is just not right and i know myself very well. so maybe this upcoming trip's something i need for myself [provided i don't kill someone or someone kill me during the trip due to utter less nonsensical stuff and endless of frustration!]

last but not least, may today be a fun day ahead as i am taking half day off so i can spend some time with sis and well suppose can go for movie in the evening. and then i remember she say wanna go pasar malam at tmn connaught.. well movie can go watch first then only to pasar malam. what do you think?

pressie

went to 1u yesterday to get a pressie but ended up bought a green top at zara with an amazing discounted price! haha.. been trying not to succumb to it but alas, still have to buy it. reason is, it matches the color for the upcoming season for fashionista! its autumn/winter of the year..

been walking all over 1u and just couldn't find the perfect pressie in purple so ended up getting a pinkish one. well lets just hope the new owner loves it then! going to have a hard time wrapping it up so.. should i just get a box and dump it in and next seal it with a kiss? well.. well.. a good thought for a lazy me!

can't believe it is already autumn/winter season of the year. just hate it because the weather gets rainy and darn cold but love it because it always meant christmas is just around the corner. *lolx.. been making my christmas wish list already!! *hmm.. tis the season to splurge on anything and everything. oh my.. better hide my cards now before it gets used to the max again!

just a short post..

weekend

my weekend..

saturday
was a day of work and work and work. last day camp with graduation night to deal with and parents. this time around is a bit better than last time cos the crowd's manageable. but still its a fine day after all. oo.. had a fun time also when i let TianJun, one of the coach to drive my car to pudu. which is quite a dangerous and exciting journey. wouldn't wanna blog it out but just the two of us knows it well!

then after work coaches and trainer decided to go and have durian buffet session while i stayed back in the office msn-ing with C aka E. sometimes all i need is just an opinion from a pal to open up my eyes on what i coulda missed out and what i could do for situation to be much much better! well i have known her for ages and we have both been through rough patches together and i really appreciate her because just when i need her most she will find her way to be there for me.

nice talking to you babe, though we didn't touch on any sore topics that's bothering me but i just somehow felt so so much better and, strange but true, relieved! although the problems and messes is still here and i really need to think something out very very soon yet i just felt de-stressed after that night. can't wait to hear from you again babe.. muacks and love you! thank you for everything..

later after that my initial plan was to go out and have a drink with S but in the end we decided to just buy the drinks and junk food back and get wasted at home instead. we went grocery shopping and i indulge in potato chips which its been centuries since i last ate it [due to the fact that no matter how confidence i am with my body, i am still a girl nonetheless] we bought peanuts to go with beer and chips for movie, then of cos dinner as well.

sorry to say that but seems like i am just too tired to get wasted with him, so i fell asleep after dinner and well he get wasted with definitely, maybe and beer and my chips alone! *lol.. sorry about that pal, i'll make sure to find another time to get wasted again before our holiday. promise not to fall asleep on you this time!

sunday
slept til err.. 4pm+ to be exact but in between got wake up for a while, short while. i tried very hard to keep myself awake just so i can go shopping but.. sleep got the better of me! then YF say cannot bring me to see fireworks at night and J ask me out for dinner and movie. well he is here to claim his winning of a challenge we had and well i am a gracious loser so treated him to little taiwan in mv. then i got a free movie treat. death race. violent but at least it has a good ending! very very violent and of cos kinda silly as well. real sadist will love it i guess, gross..

last but not least i end my day finish watching gossip girls and sleep at about 4am+.. *sigh.. what a weekend of fun and activities.

can't wait for the next weekend where i can finally, finally go home..

it's a rainy friday evening

today is my favourite day of the week.. friday!

guess what.. i have no plans what to do for tonite! have i gone crazy or am i mad?? its freaking friday and i am going to stay at home all alone? oh no!!!

so what's to do? went to the curve yesterday so don't really fancy going there again today, planned to go 1u but alone in big shopping mall just doesn't seem in the place. [well, been out of place for quite sometime so don't wanna go places where i will feel even more out of place in the mean time!!]

oh gosh.. its really getting at me! having panic attack now due to boredom friday nite!! *gee..

l.a.z.y

*sighz.. yet another day that l.a.z.i.n.e.s.s has surpass me and beat me to the finish line. i am so totally losing to it. everyone now can know that i have completed what i need to do and so i've got nothing much needed to done already.. *erm.. i mean nothing much to be done at work! plenty of personal stuff to do, such as my travel itinerary, which up till now and after frustratingly discussed with J many many times, it is still not drawn out yet. then sis is coming and i haven't even help her check out the local hotels rates, but i know she will eventually do it herself and oh ya.. i need to text jenny to let her know sis's coming and to arrange an appointment. well, so much things to do but so lazy to do it!

oh.. how i wish i can just ditch everything and go have fun just the way i like and the way i used to do! i can literally leave everything and anything regardless of the importance and just go and have fun, fun, FUN!!! would just club like there's no tomorrow when in fact i am working full shift in important launching fairs, when in fact i am working with my favourite mr. B, manager of the team. when in fact i had been clubbing few days straight! those days, hell would only make me care and all i can think of is just fun, fun and wholesome loads of fun! i could just go karaoke for hours and feel as if devil might care! i will just spend my should be sleeping hours going to genting with my friends and have a cuppa before heading back down to the city in the early morning. how i loved that kinda life.. i miss it a lot!!

last night while having my nightly long shower, i have made a decision on the spur of the moment! the decision is to be proceed only about a year later. so i have almost 7 months to plan for this big move. not going to blog it out but just to say i hate to jinx the notion away. hey.. i am a superstitious girl!

sis's coming

*lolz.. the best thing that could ever happen is the news from sis, she is coming to town!! of cos my bro-in-law as well. just couldn't wait to see her and i am seriously thinking of taking off from previews to spend time with her. well part of me wanna earn more money for my upcoming one whole week homeward bound trip and part of me just wanna slack off a lil to enjoy a mini family session. needa do some serious planning from now on as time for sis to come and vacation is coming very very soon.

da-jie's birthday's coming soon too, i might just go and grab a birthday card for her later when i go shopping since i knew her address in seychelles already. wonder should i get a lil pressie for her as well or just card will do.. well well.. its the thoughts that counts, right?

plannings and to-do-list. really need to write everything down as i am getting more and more forgetful! i am mentally ticking off what has to be done and what needs my immediate attention. *gosh.. really loads of stuff to prepare and checking with my work schedule, it is so so packed!

good news!! i just realise they have moved forward the preview time to lunch hour!! *grinz.. it means i can work the preview and go meet sis after all. *hahaha.. can plan for some after work happy hour then. must remember to carry my work schedule along everywhere i go just so i can plan my time! *sigh.. when did i ever live according to schedules! *omg.. have i changed? *urgh.. don't even wanna think about it!!

sick..

lately been feeling a lot like lil puppy who wanted more attention from loved ones.. its all because i am sick.. :D

down with headache, flu, dry throat.. (happie.. happie to be sick..)

i've got da-jie who showers me with loads of msn attention, mom called TWICE read again TWICE!! to ask me to get some stuff for it. one of it is coconut water. beats me why coconut but she say its good for heatiness. then got few random get well soon msgs from pals and someone makes me quarrel with him because i'm sick! *sighz..

well well.. time to go get some coconut water to drink..

another weekend

"the" weekend is finally here..

why do i say "the" weekend? *haha.. it is because tomoro is my first day off since 23rd june. i can still remember my last off day. spent 6hrs watching other people play mahjong. *lolz.. its fun..

so what's the plan? how to waste this precious day before the next off? (for your information, next off falls on 24th aug) *haha..

1. have a long shower..
2. sleep all i can..
3. go window shopping..
4. movie.. (sex & the city perhaps?)
5. treat meself a piece of chocolate cheese cake? i can't seems to decide between choc or cheese, why don't both!
6. watch movie and drama..
7. laze around my home's balcony in the evening washing my eyes.. pool's just down below.. *hehe..

so much things to do.. got enough time or not?? well.. well..

crap.. crapping about nothing.. Beijing Olympic 2008

listening to the Beijing Olympic 2008 grand opening outside when i am parking my butt in my office. nothing to crap.. tomoro's gonna be a better day!

Jeff's Birthday

first and foremost, a very very happy birthday to jeff jeff.. may your wishes come true and hope you'll be more happy and change your pm in msn ar!! going to fat mou seeing it.

been waiting in the office for one hour plus so burfday boy can come to pick me up and in the end i have to go and pick his friend up in centrepoint, vivian..

after picking up vivian, we went to summit,usj to wait for the two glams babe and dude.. and while waiting we had our dinner at of the restaurant there. and they make their grand arrival after dinner and after we pick up the tab. *aiks.. should have waited..

then we head to the bowling alley there to have some much planned fun. the place is full so we got put into waiting list, hmm.. what to do since gotta wait? well to the game centre then. let's have some ol' skool fun in racing those daytona and shoot some balls.. since it is quite cheap to play there as in 50cents for one token. hmm.. dunno the market price but i assumed it is cheap and affordable.

there we have yen and burfday boy shooting some goals.. after the daytona rounds. well me just go there and accompany burfday boy to celebrate so ain't much a player except for racing part. *lolz..

next we go back to play bowling.. lil did we know..

i am the 1st game winner and all it takes is just a broken fingernail.. *hehehe...

soon after finishing 2 games then yen and me head home first. well it is all because burfday boy ask one particular a-class-bad-imitation-of-miss hilton-byotch for yum cha so *sighz.. better go back first.. *urgh..

hate it!!!!! spoils my day..

^___^

still remember when i was little, my mom used to buy those baked lil piglet in cage that is only available during moon cake festival for all of us. the taste it just like moon cake's skin minus the sweet lotus paste and the fillings. we will get to choose what color's cage we want and then we will have fun eating it. every year mom will surely get it for me.. *hehe.. but since i started working and didn't even have time to go back for moon cake festival almost most of the years, i kinda miss it a lot..

that is why when i saw it is available at one of the place i went for dinner last nite, someone is sweet enough to buy it for me..

not one...

not two..

but three of it.. *grinz*

isn't it nice to be reliving childhood memories..

exhausted

went to yum cha with vicky, joanne, sherrine, agnes, kai and sean last night at asia cafe *sighz* we were planning and talking crap about kai and agnes's wedding. well, i didn't participate a lot cos i am not really in the mood to entertain and just too exhausted from work and stuff. i just felt so guilty cos i am not going to attend the wedding! sorry.. i sure wish a whole loads of happiness for them forever! muax and love you all..

last nite we are really a bunch of loud laughter people and surely i forgot to remind everyone to not to smoke in front of agnes! its bad for the development of baby.. *sigh.. be a considerate adult! then because of the late hours and kai decided to send agnes home first before we continue again our yum cha session in klang but when we just reach there we got a call from kai saying that agnes is having serious abdominal pain. that surely makes us worried like hell.. T_________T

kai is having some problem with agnes's family, i sure am not going to air it out but then i felt really bad for them both. i just can't imagine why a parent can treat their own flesh and blood this way. my sisters had faced similar problem before and i am just so so grateful and happy that my own mom is not this way! muax and love you mom!! you are the best!! *sigh.. whatever it is we will definitely support kai and agnes. for your information, we will surely move out and stay with you both. then i can help you to care for baby when he/she is born end of this year.. another baby this year.. :D

sigh.. i am so darn exhausted...

slept real early this morning cos helped sean to fold some brochures that he needs for his weekly mail drop around the neighbourhood. *hehe.. i slept out on him.. sorry ya been working too hard lately and really not in any right sense nowadays. but when he was out he did call and ask whether i want my fave mcD brekkie. *aww.. sweet of him.. just that i am too tired to eat! want to sleep..

*aiks.. mr stuart.t is having his preview in a very very fast mode.. i wanna rest for 2 full hours before starting to work again also cannot! well he wanna go midvalley buy shoe before boarding his flight home, so *sighz..

gotta work.. til then..

feeling that me is feeling now..

the feeling that me is feeling now.. loads.. its just too much..

tired - woke up early and its going to be a long, long day ahead..
confused - i don't know what i want anymore..
upset - why what i want is always something i can't get or wrong for me??
hungry - i had shumai, char siew bao and sticky rice for brunch yet i still want food.. why??
stress - i want what i want yet i can't get it. i can't take control of my mind anymore..
exhausted - from overwork since end of last month til now and going to work til next week..
hurt - from putting my heart out and get tramped on again and again..
silly - the only way i am making myself laugh
miss - missing someone and certain bunch of people
lazy - that sums up why i walk in such a slow speed
bloated - sigh.. this makes me feel fat, i wonder is this the time of the month again? so soon time passes..
pain - my shoe sucks, blistering my feet for the last few days!
emo - me is a happy emo-ian.. when i am emo, i am happy.. happy is my emo..
fcuked up - life, relationship, work, myself, friends, CC, etc..

too much to continue and too lil time... til then..

she is here for real ^_^

baby is here for real... even if its only for few hours... muacks muacks... i miss you...

my pm is soon gonna be misleading people that i am no longer single and available with all those baby and dearie.. lol.. like i care to explain~ :P